Monday, July 28, 2008


O.K. Erin tagged me to describe myself in 6 words. Here it goes:
Blessed- I have so much to be thankful for. First, my family's health. My wonderful husband and children. A large, close family (We vacation together every year and fill a house with as many people as we can. It is the best week of the year!)Some of the greatest friends. The list goes on, and I am truly thankful for everything I have.
Generous- This sounds a little funny, but ever since I was a little girl, I have always wanted to give things to other people. When I was younger, it may have been toys. As I grew older, It was more about feeling guilty if I had something that someone couldn't have(if that makes sense). So, I try to help others whenever I get the chance. Which brings me to the next word..
Compassionate- I became a nurse because I have always wanted to help people. I hate to see suffering and although it is part of life, if there is anything I can do to help, I will.
Family oriented- I love my family. They are the most important people in my life ( after God of course). And I mean my Entire family. Being with my immediate family, my parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins is the best place to be for me!
Kind- Now, we all have our moments and even our days! When I meet a stranger, I think I meet them with a smile. I try to do special things for the special people in my life.
Humble- I truly don't and never have thought of myself as better than anyone. I know I'm not.

That's it for me. I am suppose to send this on, so I'm going to try!

We had some disappointing news last week by email from our agency. We had been asking about the status of our LOA, since we haven't heard anything and it has been 120 days since we mailed off our paperwork. We found out that the latest was that our dossier was in the review room and then would be sent to the matching room. This news was devastating to me since I have daily been looking to receive our LOA. We have no idea what caused such a delay. I was very sad and really angry for a few days, it seems so unfair. But I woke up this morning and decided to pray to God to please sustain me through this day. (Thank you Jan) And tomorrow I will do the same thing. This has been really hard. I have cried and begged God to please take us to Cate. I have viewed each day as another day without her. But I must put my hope in Him. No matter what comes my way.


Sherrie said...

Kim, I feel the need to post on your blog and just let you know that I will say a prayer for you today. I know exactly what you are going through and the crazy emotions of anger and sadness.

We were DTC 3/26 and LID 4/2....we have received our LOA 7/9. I am not real sure what happened with this group of dossiers. Our reply from CCAA to our agency told us that it was because of the earthquake that their was a problem with processing the check. If you keep up with Rumor Queen there was a big slow down on the 3/31-4/2 LID. Maybe it really had something to do with the earthquake or maybe someone just messed up...I don't know.

Like you, I have gone back and forth with trusting God and having to remind myself that He is in control and that I must acknowledge this. Because we didn't travel when I thought that we might, my 14yo son was able to attend a youth conference in Orlando with 20,000 other teens and had an awesome experience. I have seen a change in him since he has returned home. So for this, I am very thankful!

I hope that you get your LOA very soon. As soon as we got our explanation, we got our LOA that very same week. Strange. It is like they woke someone up!

I tell you all this to be encouraging and supportive. This journey has been a roller coaster ride. It is so hard to have a picture of your child for 9 months and not be able to hold her. I tell people who says it is like being least with pregnancy you have your baby close to you at all times. This is not the same. Someone else is taking care of my daughter and watching her grow and change. And someone else is in control of when I can come and get her.

I hope that you have a peaceful week and some good news.

Redmom2005 said...

Kim, you are never far from my thoughts! I cannot begin to imagine what you're going through, so I don't really know what to say. But, I cannot wait for the day that you post about receiving your LOA! You won't be the only one celebrating that JOYOUS day! And, hopefully your TA will follow shortly thereafter (making up for the long wait on your LOA)! You stay strong and keep your head up! Thanks for being such a great friend when I've needed it the most! I can't wait for my husband to get those pictures of Cate for you!!

mom 2 many said...

I am praying for you and Miss Cate. I truly wish to see her home ASAP! I think SHE has waited long enough for her very own special family!! I pray that you have the speediest of TA's once your LOA arrives. Y'all are always in my prayers!


Wright Family said...

We too were over 120 days officially (that doesn't count that our dossier actually arrived in China last July and it was set aside to wait for the arrival of papers for 2 boys whose papers never did arrive)...Now on this side of things, everything feels like it is just as it should be...I believe it will be that way for you,too..Catherine